I tried everthing.From changing my attitude to changing my clothes and appearence.But looks like nobody appreciate it.Yup nobody does appreciate it.I dont know what you guys want from me.Thanks for all the stupid compliment you guys give about my appearence. Although you tried to make me feel better, but deep in my heart i don't.

I feel damn stupid for the changes in me.I keep thinking is it right or have i made the wrong choices in life.I want to tell you guys what i think badly but im sorry.This is such a stupid thing to share with.Too stupid to even think about.Maybe to you guys itss nothing but to me it,s such a huge thing that i feel like killing myself.

Yup killing.Sound stupid?But guess what, i'm ready to die slowly in a horrible way and to meet HIM.Actually i just want to meey my nenek.Omg, i dont even konw if she love me or not.I dont even know if my parent love?Sound stupid?But guess what(again) i've been thinking about it since im 6 years old.And i never found the answer.I don't even konw the motive behind me living in this world.Maybe HE just want me to get hurt more?

And hey guess again and again, i've manage to keep all the problem to myself for nearly 15 years.I just want everthing to end tomorrow.Yup tomorrow.And i hate the day i was born.Every minutes and second of it.People love their birthday because you guys get present from the people you love.But to me present make people waste money on someone.I sorry if i hurt you guys feeling but it does.I feel stupid for all this talking or should i say blogging.

I don't even konw what i want.Like what my friends always say "orang tak cukup kasih sayang."(people who has not enough love) Maybe it's me.I don't even know what im saying.When the next few days or week came and i read this post, i shall laugh and feel embarressed for myself then again after a few monthns i'm going to write something rubbish like this and make you guys read it, AGAIN!

But hey, no matter what happen tomorrow is/are going to be a normal day without any doubt.Nothing will be recieve from me.
Tomorrow, people will forget about it. Trust me.

I want it to end quick. No matter what happen i love people around me even if they are my enemy

I guess now i know what guys first reaction when they first meet me.Thank for tell me ______.

Ayuni